The one thing that I wasn't prepared for with the divorce was the loss of his entire family. I did not think about the fact that when I divorced him, I divorced his family too. I really miss them and feel bad that so many things have not been cleared up between us. I was a part of their family for about fifteen years and suddenly one day that was all gone. He comes from a fairly large family - six kids. His sisters became the sisters that I never had. Of the fifteen grandchildren, there are some now that I haven't even met and of the ones that I was there for their birth, most of them do not remember me. I find it hard to be an outsider looking in to this family that I was once a part of. I miss the excitement that they brought to my life. They were fun and there was always some sort of huge drama going on in at least one person's life at any given time. I miss being a part of that. I still love them all. Each one has touched my life and been a part of the making of this person that I am today.

On a similar topic, What do you do with all those old pictures? I have mine tucked away in a box. They are beautiful treasures from another time. I have moved on and have new pictures to display. My parents however, still display my engagement picture from my first marriage. What's that about?