Tuesday, March 30, 2004
Christine was right. I'm not that nice and decent person that I pretended to be. After much thought, I've decided that my last post was BS. I still have a lot of resentment towards the she-ex and if the truth be known, I think that I preferred it when she was trying to ruin our lives. It just left me looking more like a saint. My true feelings became evident yesterday. I sat down to the computer and came across some recently accessed documents. (I wasn't snooping...just accidentally found them) They were pictures of the she-ex. Apparently, Hubby had been looking at them the night before. I had not been easy to get along with this past weekend and when I saw this yesterday morning - I flipped! My thoughts were this....Why is he looking at pictures of his ex? Is he re-thinking his decision? Now that she's nice, is he re-living the past and wondering if it could have worked out? Does he feel trapped in a relationship with me?....... I dwelt on this all day and confronted him with it after work. After some time, when we both calmed down, he reassured me. He told me that he was mostly looking at pictures of his daughter when she was a baby and that yes, he was reminiscing about a family vacation that they had taken. He was remembering what a terrible trip it had been. He said that I had nothing to worry about. I feel stupid. I don't know why I let myself get so worked up like that. Obviously, I haven't resolved my feelings about the she-ex. I'll have to keep working on that.
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