Vicious Cycle

It's that time again! The time that comes every two weeks that puts a knot in my stomach and gives me a headache. It's time for the kids to visit their father.

After the last visit, I was very concerned about things that the he-ex says to the kids. I wish right now that I could keep them away from him until he gets he act together.

The call came this morning from his mother. (He will not talk to me himself) The phrase "Robbie's in pretty rough shape" did not surprise me. What I did not know is that there was an incident last night which sent the he-ex to two different hospitals and involved a police report. I questioned whether or not it was a good idea to let the kids see him like that and also mentioned to my former MIL my concerns about the things that were being said to the kids while they were at her home. She defended the he-ex saying that he cries for days and misses the kids terribly when they are gone. I told her that I understood that and she remarked, "No you don't. You've always been with them. There's no way you could possibly understand what he's going through."

And so it begins again. I've made arrangements to meet the former in-laws to drop off the kids tonight. Hubby is upset with me because I'm so soft. I am worried about my children having to worry about their father. It's the same thing every 14 days and I can't seem to decide on or commit to a course of action. I just want to do the right thing. What IS the right thing to do? I wish it was clear to me.