The Cold Hard Facts

I went in to see the Doc. yesterday afternoon for the ultrasound results. There was no heartbeat. The baby was measuring about a week and a half smaller than it should have been. He told me that with this information and given my history that I was looking at a miscarriage - But then he told me to go for another ultrasound in two weeks to be sure. TWO WEEKS! So, my question is this: Do I grieve now or in two weeks? Do I dare hang on to the thread of hope that perhaps the results were wrong? Do I pray and believe for a miracle? Do I leave the house knowing that I could miscarry at any moment? I still feel pregnant. This whole thing is so confusing. I refuse to let depression kick my ass this time. Where do we go from here? I guess we just continue waiting. Wanna wait with me? Grab a magazine and a coffee.