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I've been transferring our home movies from VHS to DVD. Watching them brings back many memories. Of course, we only chronicled the good times and not the bad, but there are some scenes where I remember what I was thinking at the time, or what had happened the day before. I see myself smiling but remember the pain. I also have been watching my children grow up again. I remember when they leapt into my arms what they felt like - The weight of their bodies, the smell of their hair, the feel of their skin on mine when they were babies and toddlers. How nice it is to have those memories saved forever on a disc. I remember old friends that I haven't seen in years. I remember happy, careless times; Parties with people that I now forget the names of. I remember the good times that the he-ex and I had and why I was so in love with him. I see Grandparents who have since departed and remember their voices, their touch. And I realize how precious life really is and how quickly time flies and how things can change and put you on a path that you never dreamed you would be on.

And even though relationships change and divorce happens, Family is Forever. And that's why, When the he-ex hugged me this weekend and told me that he loved me and missed me, I was able to say it back to him.

Though all those times are precious, If I could go back in time, I don't think that I would. There are so many new memories to be made. The kids are growing up and changing. I have a husband who makes each day special - A future to look forward to. When the kids were babies, I'd find myself saying "This is my favourite stage". Then they'd do something new and that would become my favourite stage.

It's good to remember from where we've come. But today, right now...This is my favourite stage of life.