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I'm going to attempt to leave my house at some point today. I want to go back to the cemetary and spend a few moments there. I can't explain why. In fact, I always thought it kinda strange that people would go and visit loved ones grave sites. But now I understand - although it's impossible to put into words. There's just something drawing me there.

I'm making progress. Yesterday, I did nothing. Today, I showered. Heh. I called and made a follow up OB appointment. I cancelled the 3D ultrasound that I had scheduled for next week. I'm going to try and eat something, and then later tonight, Hubby and I might go and see a movie.

One by one, I'm cancelling the pregnancy emails that I receive daily. I have 8 packages of diapers to return to the store. I've spoken to my boss and asked for more time. Also, asked her to order me a non-maternity uniform. I've watched hours of mindless TV and played hundreds of games of spider solitaire.

Just waiting for life to become meaningful again.