Sunday, October 03, 2010

The Wall


So, It's been a year. I've been dealing with a pretty big issue for a year now, or maybe not dealing with it. I am tired. I don't really remember the last time I laughed a real genuine laugh. It seems that I've spent a good portion of my life pretending that everything is okay, trying to protect myself and the people around me. This juggling act is so exhausting. I wish that I could just tell the truth, but the truth is ugly and with it comes judgement. And so here I sit quietly alone behind these walls. Winter is coming. The days are getting shorter. They say that the sun will shine again. Maybe when it does, I'll step outside and soak up it's warmth.


chRistine said...

pretending sucks. i'm glad you blogged.

Cracker Jack said...

I'd sing "Tommorow" the sun will come out, but it seems that you wouldn't want that on this post. Hope things turn around for the better

NiNi said...

its like your words came out right from my mouth... I'm feeling the same thing.

Hope for sunshine all along next year =)