As part of the greiving process, I've blamed myself, my husband, my doctor and God for this terrible loss. However, placing blame is unproductive and unhealty. I may never know why. I am sad and angry that this happened - but have to move on.
As might be expected...While I'm in this angry stage last night, the she-ex has Emily call our house. Emily was sweet and asked how I was doing. Then she tells me that she has a friend sleeping over at her house. The funeral is at 3:30 but her friend isn't going home until 4. "Can't she go home early?" I ask. The answer is No. I hand the phone over to Hubby before I completely snap.
Hubby explains to Emily that he wants her here alone for the funeral by 3 p.m. He tells her that he loves her and understands that she wants to spend time with her friends, but that this is an important priority. The she-ex can be heard in the background saying "Oh, Just Forget It!"
I'm not a violent person, but it would not be in my best interest legally if I told you what I'd like to do to the she-ex for being so insensitive and stupid.
Even if the death of our baby had nothing to do with the she-ex, I now have somewhere to direct my anger. I should thank her for being so predictable and always being there for me when I need someone to blame.
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misdirected?
i admire you. i'd have physically crawled through the phone and strangled her. this wasn't a trip to grandma's house or a church service.. it was a funeral for a sibling.
on what planet, even if the funeral was for a family friend, do you bring a friend along to a funeral???
misdirected? hardly.
You have to be kidding me......... I'd have to be held back from wanting to kill her.
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